Thursday, December 14, 2006: love is...
watched The Holiday today with nat, and i suddenly know why i love watching such romantic movies. its because i'm a romantic myself. i love watching chik flicks cos i love the thrill of falling in love with the characters, i love the music, i love the plot, i love the happy endings. to summarise, i love everything about a romantic chik flick. perhaps thats why my theory of love is so simple. girl meets boy, they fall in love, and kaboom, they get married and have kids and live happily ever after. love stories in the movies mostly go like this. but lets face it, this beautiful dream that such movies spin, never really happens in real life. thats perhaps why i love watching romantic movies: because i want to live in their fantasy.
in a sense, it is pretty dangerous. i remember how i, in the past, used to hope for a story like that, a story of true love and happiness till the day that i die, and i'd start to wish for something somewhere. i look in all the wrong places and when i do fall into this endless spiral, i feel scared and lost. i feel like i cant get out. and i get stuck again. somewhere. but then, i am reminded of the One who loved me with an everlasting love, the One who cared so much that He'd rather give up His life for me, so that i can be saved. then everything, all that i feel in the deep recesses of my heart, fades away, and as i look to Him, i feel a glimmer of something, perhaps something refreshing, something that takes the ache away. i feel happier, less pained. now, if i fall in love, its a blessing from God, its not mine to decide, its His decision to give, and mine to recieve.
i know, i think too much. i dramatise my life too much.
my brain is exactly like the voice that narrates in amanda's (character in The Holiday which Cameron Diaz plays) head, the voice which automatically puts her life into movie trailer mode.
but i like to think and reflect. so it suits me.
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in other news,
my new laptop is here! in a sense, i cant really bear to part with my old one. it holds too many memories, but ah well :D my new laptop has more space. so thats good news ay. i need space.
the caroling practice today went pretty well! i'm really happy. God has blessed us so much, so abundantly. like claire said, we grew from a mere group of 7 to a group of 45. if God's hand wasnt in this, who's was? (: we sound really good too. now all we have to do, is go out there to carol! its not that difficult right? with God, we can do everything.
turn your eyes upon Jesuslook full in His wonderful faceand the things on earth will grow strangely dimin the light of His glory and grace
a shout of praise.
10:37 PM
watched The Holiday today with nat, and i suddenly know why i love watching such romantic movies. its because i'm a romantic myself. i love watching chik flicks cos i love the thrill of falling in love with the characters, i love the music, i love the plot, i love the happy endings. to summarise, i love everything about a romantic chik flick. perhaps thats why my theory of love is so simple. girl meets boy, they fall in love, and kaboom, they get married and have kids and live happily ever after. love stories in the movies mostly go like this. but lets face it, this beautiful dream that such movies spin, never really happens in real life. thats perhaps why i love watching romantic movies: because i want to live in their fantasy.